Its beenalmost 2 years..they have been together but it seemed 2 her...as if
they hav been 2gether forevr....she was never tired of saying him how
much she luvs him.....how much she cares for him...but he was totally
different...she was soooo serious about him...so attached 2 him...tht
she wud even cry for d smallest things he said harshly.....
he
would say.."hey M...dnt b so stupid...u r matured gal...ther shud b
feelings...bt no t attachment....i dnt want u 2 think abt me d 24
hrs...u hav lot 2 do..go on wid ur wrk....etc etc..." n she wondered watz wrong wid him???
she
evn used 2 doubt if he is really serious../.bt deep inside her
heart...she knew d truth tht he loves her sooo much tht if he really
shows it out....she cant stand it.....
she was happy n contented in
1 way...bt thn tht was nt d way 1 can always convince themselves. She
wanted 2 shout at him 2day....she wanted 2 tel him tht this is
enuff....watever he has done 2 her was nt fair....she was worth more
thn wat she gets....2day she was totally confused....she luvd him soo
much tht she dint want 2 hurt him....bt jst for this reason....she has
been hurting herself....
"I t really hurts "...she thought....."y
isnt he calling me??is he k??watz his prob?!!"....d last time he tlked
2 her....it was a rather cold conversation n he said "m really
disturbed...i hav got my own tensions...bt i cant tel u wat is it....i
just want some relief n wen m k...i "ll cal u..."!!! she was really
hurt...she thought he dint consider her trsutworthy enuff 2 share his
probs....but wat does he mean by saying i"ll cal u wen m k??!! is she a
toy 2 play wen he wants 2 throw away wen hez bored..or busy??!!!
Thinking
of all this.....she cudnt sleep...it was 12.30 nw.....she was really
missing him.....tht was d time.....he wud call her....n tlk 2 her d
whole nite....she wudnt speak nething....n evn if she spoke....tht wud
b d whispers...tht he luvd soo much.,...tht he cud giv up his
sleep.....he wud stay awake d whole nite yawning...bt still listening 2
her.....she really cudnt stand this feeling of seperation......she felt
as if she was getting strangled.....she got up frm her bed....n got
into d balcony.....n sat on a chair.....she dint knw wat time it
was.....she was jst staring into d sky.....dark.....calm....n ther was
some kinda morbidity.....she looked down d streets.....ther was
no1....nt evn a single soul.....evrything was dark...except a street
light frm a far off corner.....all this was getting on her nerves....
she
was recalling all those magical moments....d day the met....it was
drizzling....he thought she wudnt come....n she came a bit late......he
was like "u r late"....n she said.."sorry ...n thn itz fine rite"..he
was totally drenched....bt she was looking gracious...but nervous....n
she dropped d pastry they ordered.....n gave a stupid embarrassed
smile...he just smiled it away....they had a cozy chat....n thn they
left....nthing much....that they she avoided tlking 2 him wen he cald
at nite......cuz she felt itz getting very far.....bt thn she cudnt
stop tlking 2 him....aftr 2...3 days.....they met again....n this time
it was a date never 2 b forgotten.....they went 4 a movie....did some
shopping...n thn aftr coming bak home.....she was thinking....y did i
go wid him???y cudnt i say no 2 him wen he asked for a movie??m i k??m
i falling for him??
it was d first time she felt like tht for a
guy.....she tlked 2 him tht nite....he was giving her clues...he wasnt
sure hw she"ll react....he dint say nething...n tht day,...she was
sitting in d balcony watching d sky...d moon....thinking wat 2 do?!!
wen she saw...her guy down ther....on his knees....wid a bunch of
roses......she was on d cloud 9....she jst ran 2 him.....n hugged
him.....they went 4 a drive early mrng... 2 d beach......n startd their
luv story,......
she recalled hw times were so
gud...sweet...romantic..n now he doesnt even hav time 4 her......she
decided....she dint want 2 b with him nemore....she decided tht wen
calls shez gonna say " Mr. K.....enuff of games wid my heart....now
stop all this....go on wid ur life...u expect me 2 b wid u wen u need
me....n u want me 2 leav u wen u r tired of all d bondages!!...huh!!!
hw can u xpect ppl 2 b puppets in ur hands....i dnt wanna bear all this nemore.....jst set me free!!!"
she had tears in her eyes.....she dint knw....she was confused....is watever she doin rite??!!
she
just stood by d balcony wall....wiping her tears.....she felt sooooo
lonely this nite......she dint knw watz gonna happn 2mrw.....she was
scared evn 2 think of all dis!!! she jst looked down wen she heard a
sound......n ther was her luv....yes...K was ther....on his knees wid
roses...red 1s...were her favourite....she was shocked...was doubting
if she was hallucinating.....bt no..it was really K
..........she
ran down d lane...hugged him so tight...as if ther wud b nooo
seperation....she cried...she shouted....she laughed....she kissed
him.....soo many mixed feelings she had 2day.it was really unbearable
for 2 stay without him nw........he said "m sorry M.....u r my
baby....i cant hurt u.....will nver do tht again......plzzzzzzz dont
leav me......be wid me forever" .......as if he had read her
mind........!!! .....it was their anniversary....2 years of b eing
together was not soo easy.....love was there always..bt they had face
many other things.....n still they were 2gether....n
happy...............she cudnt speak........tears jst welled up....she
wantd 2 stay in his arms forever.......she jst smiled n said :"LUV
u"……d question 2 b or not 2 b with??!!……2 b with him forever…